Thoughts from the craft room floor...

Weird title, but that's exactly how I got here to this post. I was on the floor in my craft room and I was feeling inspired. Really inspired for the first time in a while. It's been building the last couple of weeks. I'm guessing the vacation helped. (I spent last week at Disney in case you missed the memo...I doubt you did since it's all I could talk about for the last month.) Anyway, back to the floor. I was just sitting there amongst all my many crafting tools and supplies and I was letting the random thoughts just run behind the one thing I was actually focusing on. You know how your brain does that, right? I was pulling together the supplies I needed for the project I'm about to start. I was thinking, "would this red or that one be better?" Deep, right? But this is what I was focusing on while my brain churned through random thoughts...need to put away the laundry, looking forward to the Christmas Village with Iras tomorrow, need to work on the project list, maybe I should look at Donna's list again. That's about the time my brain tuned in to the Mat Kearney song that was playing. He's my new musical obsession. He's a singer/songwriter that started out in Christian music and crossed over to mainstream pretty successfully. He's a few years younger than me chronologically, but based on the lyrics he writes he's light years ahead of me in terms of self expression. And I think that's saying something. I think I express myself well. Colorfully. Thoughtfully. I give myself credit for being a pretty emotionally intelligent person and I think most people would agree. If I have one strength above others, that's it. I notice people...really try to see them. Try to realize what they need emotionally - when I'm really on, I can get it even before they do and then provide it. I occasionally make someone uncomfortable with the amount of focus I'm using...though I try not to. I hope that more often than not, I'm helpful. See, I think people can't always find the good, valuable, wonderful thing inside of themselves. I like to find it and then shine a light on it and illuminate the hell out of it. We all need someone to shine a light on us from time to time. The world and the people in it aren't black and white. It's a world full of color and shading and it's beautiful. Everyone has good within them. Everyone has faults. You know, it's complicated. You have to see the whole person. You have to see the balance to truly appreciate the person they are. When I think about it, I can't remember any extended period of time when I felt truly worthy to be taking up space on the planet. I've had moments sure, but I think the reason I so enjoy lifting others up is that it's easier than trying to find something in myself that I want to shine a light on. Ugh, self-introspection. So, this random post is my statement that I believe I am valuable. I contribute something good to the world and specifically to the people in my life. Even on the days when I settle for just breathing in and breathing out, I am worthy of the love of my family and friends. Love, that's the thing...the thing I'm trying to get to. "All you need is love." Apparently it's a night for song lyrics and musical genius. I do so appreciate talent...but that's a whole other post. In case you're wondering what song initially provoked all this random musing from a floral patterned rug in the middle of a room, it's "Never Be Ready" and if you want to know more about Mat Kearney read this. http://artists.letssingit.com/mat-kearney-2b6hx/biography